Wednesday, December 3, 2008

nwa gets a zero

this past thanksgiving i went home. it was quite the adventure trying to get there too.

i get up at 3:30 AM and
4:50 AM I arrive at the St. George Express in St. George Ut (about 45 minutes from Cedar City)
6:30 AM all check in and sitting on a chair by my gate at the Las Vegas Airport.

i noticed another flight leaving for minneapolis at 7 AM and it's boarding...i wonder...i call my dad and he says to go ask to see if there are any seats left. the lady doesnt even make me pay the normal fee for getting a seat on a new flight because it's thanksgiving the next day! oh happy day :)

i am thrilled. i get to leave at 7 instead of 9:15 AM so i will get to minneapolis around 12 instead of 3!!! joy joy joy!

i also got a window seat!

could this day get ANY better????

they tell us to buckle up and turn off all electronic devices, yay!

"we're sorry to tell you this, but we're having troubles with the fuel gauge. it should only be about 10 minutes till we take off."

2 hours later...

the lady finds me and says you can still make your original flight. well ok. i go back and YAY still have a window seat

it's taking off, we're moving, then it stops.

"we're sory to tell you this, but we're having troubles with the engine. it should only be about 10 minutes till we take off."

we were supposed to leave at 9:15, we left at 10:30

i didn't arrive in minneapolis until 3:15 PM. joy.


that night i hung out with mairead, that was much fun. we went to the mall and i bought some clinique face wash and they had this deal with make up and, like tony says, i'm the worlds greatest customer. i'm sold on almost any deal. so naturally i took it. heh heh.

then i needed black pants for work! kids care! i have black pants, but they are awfully large and baggy on me. not attractive at all. so we found some in wet seal, they were having a sale, so it was only like $16.00!! yay!

then we went to cold stone and had ice cream. i have a like it chocolate devotion without the chocolate chips but extra fudge :)

now one of my most favorite pasttimes is to drive around, it is so relaxing and fun. so we did just that. we drove around until the gas tank went empty, filled her up and decided to look at houses. oh boy the adventures. nice houses though.

thursdays. thanksgiving. the day of food. not too bad, though i was mainly just waiting until tony came over that night. he came over around 8 and we hung out with my family for a bit. seeing him was wonderful, oh i missed him so.

friday. i went over to tonys around 130ish. we watched home videos of him. he was such a cute baby. he had hair on the side of his head but none on the top! he was like an old man :)

we were planning on seeing twilight with tess, mairead, and karla.

karla says she cant go because she made other plans.
tess then says she has tickets with her family to see honk.

so then tony and i were like..ok. lets go to a matinee. so we tell mairead that and she decides not to go.

twilight was faaaaaaabulous. even tony said it was good!!!

oh jasper you handsome vampire you!

edward was pretty cute too, part way through the film.

it was my second time seeing it :)

after the movie we went to the mall!! and i bought another pair of black pants, this time from charlotte russe. yay!

he did not enjoy the mall. i kept dragging him from store to store, gap, charlotte russe, american eagle, maurices, vanity, and even victorias secret. that one was very amusing. i didnt want anything from there, i just wanted to make him uncomfortable. hahahahahah

then i decided to let him win one and we went to barnes and noble. we both enjoyed it. we have different interests when it comes to books. i like history and love stories and he prefers it seems biographies and music lyrics. i was completely engaged in this queen elizabeth book that i didnt even realize tony was talking to me. :)

then we went to applebees with a whole bunch of ppl. it was aight. i was hungry.

saturday. HAIR CUT DAY. it's shorter now. :)

then tony came with me and my family to help pick out a tree. he was really only there to help carry the tree. haha.

then me and my family went out to eat at the grand old country buffet. classy.

then i went over to tonys around 6ish and we just hung out till we picked up paulina around 8. mark came over too and then we got invited to amandas. hung out there for a couple hours.


my flight was to leave at 3 PM

"we're sorry to tell you this, but the panels on a wing are loose. we're sorry for the delay."


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nwa you have failed me.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

weekend in provo

this past weekend i went to provo to spend time with haley. it was a long awaited trip. we have been trying to find a weekend where i can go up there to see her but either one of us is busy or we're fighting. in a way, we're like sisters. anywho.
i drive up there friday evening, the sun is setting and i have never driven up to provo before, it wasnt too bad. UTAH DRIVERS ARE TERRIBLE. i just had to say it. i am a person who likes to go the speed limit so i can maintain my absolutely clean speeding tickets or even being pulled over. the speed limit in utah is 75, but utah drivers seem to always be in a hurry as they go at least 10 over. i settled for a nice 80, though when i was singing out loud to a song i noticed that my speed would get to 85-90 on accident. ohh what happens when my mind isnt on the road, though it rarely is. driving is quite boring.
i get to provo around 8ish, and haley is waiting for me the parking lot, boy its much colder in provo than in cedar. luckily, i prepared for the weather. 18 years of living in mn has trained me well. we go to her dorm, and she has a hallmate there and shes watching a knight's tale. highly entertaining movie and heath ledger will always be a pennical of hottness.
i was also starving so after the movie we go down to the vending machines. i havent seen such a variety of food in a very very long time. an even cooler part of it was that her card, normally one would assume its just for the cafeteria, but alas, it also works for the vending machines and various stores across campus. i got a lunchable, icecream cookie sandwich, and chocolate milk :)
haley and i shared her bed, it was most uncomfortable at first but the second night wasnt as bad, prolly cuz we stayed up till past four just talking and i was soooo tired that i zonked out. oh i love being able to touch my head to the pillow and within five minutes im out.
on saturday we got up at 11. this is very very very very impressive for me, for i do not usually get up on saturdays till 2. i took a shower, it was interesting. though, it wasnt too terrible. my only complaint is that they only had curtains and there wasnt much room to shave legs so i kept trying to do it quickly but the water would wash the soap off, up down up down, i eventually gave up and did just the razor and water. owell.
then we went to the cannon, byu's cafeteria, like 2 something for breakfast 3 something for lunch and like 4-5 something for dinner. the food was really good, it wasnt just like fake nasty food that normal cafeterias serve, it was real food. though that wouldnt matter to dad, he would just be in heaven that its an all you can eat for every meal.
after lunch we walked around campus, oh i love it there. the feeling i had was so peaceful and calming. it was soooo nice to be out of cedar and be genuinely happy. we went to the bookstore and looked at a twilight movie book thing, ohh im excited. and then she showed me rape hill though there has only been on reported rape/attack on that hill. whereas SUU has a reported 7 rapes a semester. we already lost a girl in september. though most of the rapes on this campus, we're told, is because of parties and such, not just a girl wandering around a night, though thats what happened to the girl in september. aaaaanywho. it made me really want to go to byu all over again. i'd so be going there if i got in last time, and i doubt i'll make it in this time either. i added byu and usu to my list of applications for a transfer.
hmmm we saw ducks, in a duck pond. i dont like birds...they freak me out.
we tried to see the dark knight at the dollar theater, but it was sold out all day since the day before. its a brilliant movie.
oh on saturday we watched two movies, save the last dance and there and back? or something its with demi moore, rosie odonnel, christina ricci, you know, the story of young friends and they meet again when they are boring adults. you know.

now now now on sunday, we went to haleys ward. they actually have boys in their ward. and all their meetings were in classrooms haha. it was kinda cool. i took a nap while she did hw. then we went ot dinner and then i went back to dreadful cedar. the way back took longer unfortunately. ihad to stop for gas, 2.39 when in cedar is 1.89!!!! AHSFLSKJFLSDKFJSDLFJSDLFKjs
LAME LAME LAME stupid gas stations in the middle of no where taking advantage of the fact that they are the only gas stations for miles! wheres human decency?
oh and my cd player decided to be stupid and lame and wouldnt release the cd. so at the gas station i took the plastic part out and just stuck my hand in the hole and took the cd out myself. then put the plastic thing back on and put another cd in and it worked just fine.
i think the trip to provo and back takes about a tank and two quarters. either its the high speeds, or im not doing something right or the tank is small idk.
anywho. im going to the midnight showing of twilight with emily who lives across the hall! yayayay! i thought i wasnt going cuz i only had one ticket but didnt want to go alone and turns out emily already had one for the same theater! :) :) :) yay! im excited. emily is really cool, shes funny, i like her. shes normal. haha.
one week till im home :)

Monday, November 10, 2008


i want to go to sea world and i want to go inside the shark tank in a cage.

i also want a long haired female chihuahua puppy.

getting that puppy is now my goal. i will care for her and she will be my best friend. we'll cuddle and play and i'll feed her and brush her hair. :)

Saturday, November 8, 2008

if i were a boy

i rarely like beyonce's songs, but this one i really like alot.

if i were a boy...

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it
Because they’d stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone its broken
So they think
that I was sleeping alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waiting for me to come home (to come home)

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted (wanted)
Cause he’s taken you for granted (granted)
And everything you had got destroyed

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don’t understand (yea you don’t understand)
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you’ll wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you've taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy…

Sunday, November 2, 2008

how uncomfortable

this past weekend was pretty fun!

thursday i went to an event held by the institute called trunk or treat. it was pretty cool, my only complaint is that i dont think they prepared enough. they ran out of candy before 830 and it started at 8. LAME.


i got to meet corbin allred :)

he is in saints and soldiers. :) :) :) :)

he goes to SUU!!!! hes wants to be a doctor, and he is aprils lap partner in biology! AHH

that's him. ahh i was so nervous and excited. that makes a total of TWO famous people i've met. holla :)

ok and then after the trunk or treat i watched its a wonderful life for my film class. SO good! i was so moved by it that i wrote a note haha.

then on friday i ate an old hot dog cuz i was huuuuuungry but that turned out to be a very bad idea. :(

then at 10 me lisa and stacia went to the school's halloween dance. umm...bleh.

first off, you could barely hear the music
secondly, the music wasnt that danceable

i was the first one of the three of us to have someone attempt to grind with me. i almost died. it was one of the guys who dressed as a chip and dale. no, not the cartoon squirrels, but like some vegas thing where the guy wears tight pants no shirt and a bow tie. now, dont get me wrong, all of those chip and dale boys that night were incredibly buff and good looking but i did NOT want to ground upon.

that was one of the reasons i did NOT want to go. i've seen movies and tv shows of parties where guys just start grinding with random girls. not my cup of tea!

anywho, so im dancing with lisa and stacia when i fell something behind me. i instantly freeze and start squeezing lisas arm and stacia is telling me to breathe. im not doing any hip movements cuz i didnt want to mislead the boy. im just standing still, freaking out. he gets closer and i can feel his manhood and thats when i wanted to cry. yikes.

anywho, he gives up cuz im not giving him anything.


the only person i'd even think about grinding with is tony. and theres no way i'd grind with another guy anyways. i could never do that to tony and i know he wouldnt want me to and i also know he wouldnt grind with other girls either.

the next one to have an experience is lisa, though she does grind with this guy. the guy though turns her around to face him really quickly and they are frontal grinding. you can tell shes a bit uncomfortable haha. then the guy gets real close to her face and leans in and kisses her hahaha. and he keeps trying to kiss her again and lisa is just like no.. no i have to go, i have to go! haha poor lisa. she said he smelled like alcohol which explains why he was so forward.

later on that night we spot him with this girl and they are frontal grinding, but its like humping. it was sooo...nasty. but other ppl were having sex on the dance floor too so it was overall a very uncomfortable dance party.

stacia was next, some guy came up behind her and started. she seemed to enjoy it at first but after like 3 songs, she wasnt having fun anymore. and i saved her by going up to her and saying, hey me and lisa are heading out now, and shes like oh ok, and tells the guy she has to go. phew.

we do indeed leave after that. we stayed there for about 2 in a half hours. though prolly for the first half hour we were watching a band play. oh goodness that band was one of those bands that screamed at you. i didnt like it.

so we go back to our apartment and two guys come over, dakota and this other guy that lives above us, i dont remember his name and we watch disturbia. that guy that i dont know his name is really nice though. he came over for dinner laast sunday when it was just me and lisa. i feel like i know his name, but i dont remember it. :/

anywho, then on saturday i did some laundry and i FINALLY got food. yesss. i ran out of food prolly on tuesday. but i set a budget for myself and went over it so i refused to spend money till november. but i did lose some weight, i tend to loes weight when i dont consume as much food as normal. normal i'd say. haha

i hope my bread doesnt mold again afer a week. that would suck. i try eating sandwiches everyday but sometimes i dont want a sandwich. gosh.

ok. its sunday. i have to study math cuz i have a math test on my birthday tomorrow. i am hoping for a C. i somewhat feel i know factoring a little bit, at least enough for get half credit on each problem. :)

ok. im 19 tomorrow. one last year of being a teenager. if i was a daredevil i'd want to do some extreme things, but im not, im quite wimpy actually. though i wouldnt say no to surfing lessons, or parasailing, or an air balloon ride. as long as i dont have to plummet quickly to the ground, im good.

Monday, October 27, 2008


i have a new post below this one too. just so you know...

i did my first assignment for my stupid as ever LM 1010 class. if i had known that this university required me to take unimportant, already learned material, university classes, i would have looked somewhere else.

colleges i considered applying to transfer to

-paulina told me about how they have a quidditch team. and once i heard that, i had a huge desire to also go there. until i found tuition was over 45,000 a year. yikes

st. thomas
-also incredibly expensive but i dont remember how much it costs. plus i believe i needed more credits.

colleges im going to apply to transfer to

-i really liked their campus, and they have the major i want. to make it a triple bonus, yes tony goes there too. downside: costs a lil bit more than suu, 20,000 a year. whereas suu is about 17-18,000 a year. though if you consider the academic record and stance on each school...suu is embarassing. tbirds...thor...embarassing

eau claire
-its a decent school, not too shabby. requires at least a 2.5 gpa for transfers, unlike all the other uw schools which require a 2.0. so thats promising. (madison requires a 3.0) and its not expensive for instate, and it has my major. and karla goes there

-eh. im not entirely interested in this school. but its less than an hour away from madison. so theres a bonus. closest school to madison...oh and it has my major i want. and its cheap

-right major. and i'd live with mairead and paige. and its cheap. but i'd be in the Rochester mn singles ward...gag me.

hum de dum dum.

hint hint...hint hint

someone posted a note on facebook. what boys should do for their girlfriends to help make the world a better place. i will high light the ones i like the best.

When she walks away from you mad
[ Follow her ]

When she stares at your mouth
[ Kiss her ]

When she pushes you or hits you
[ Grab her and dont let go ]

When she starts cussing at you
[ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]

When she's quiet
[ Ask her what's wrong ]

When she ignores you
[ Give her your attention ]

When she pulls away
[ Pull her back ]

When you see her at her worst
[ Tell her she's beautiful ]

When you see her starting to cry
[ Just hold her and dont say a word ]

When you see her walking
[ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ]

When she's scared
[ Protect her ]

When she lays her head on your shoulder
[ Tilt her head up and kiss her ]

When she steals your favorite hat
[ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night ]

When she teases you
[ Tease her back and make her laugh ]

When she doesn't answer for a long time
[ Reassure her that everything is okay ]

When she looks at you with doubt
[ Back yourself up ]

When she says that she likes you
[ She really does. More than you could understand ]

When she grabs at your hands
[ Hold hers and play with her fingers ]

When she bumps into you
[ Bump into her back and make her laugh ]

When she tells you a secret
[ Keep it safe and untold ]

When she looks at you in your eyes
[ Dont look away until she does ]

When she misses you
[ She's hurting inside ]

- Stay on the phone with her even if shes not saying anything.

- When she's mad, hug her tight and don't let go

- When she says she's ok dont believe it, talk with her

- Because 10 years later she'll remember you

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

- Call her before you sleep and after you wake up

- Treat her like she's all that matters to you

- Tease her and let her tease you back

- Stay up all night with her when she's sick

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid

- Give her the world

- Let her wear your clothes

- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her

- Let her know she's important

- Kiss her in the pouring rain

Thursday, October 16, 2008

how to annoy your roommate

theres this group on facebook, how to annoy your roommate, and these are the suggestions i found the most amusing

-When your roommate comes in, pretend that you are on the phone, screaming angrily and shouting obscenities. After you hang up, say, "That was your mom. She said she'd call back."

-Keep a tarantula in a jar for three days. Then get rid of the tarantula. If your roommate asks, say, “Oh, he’s...... around here somewhere....

-Buy a jack-in-the-box. Every day, turn the handle until the clown pops out. Scream continuously for twenty minutes.

-Set your alarm clock for 3 AM. Push the doze button every 5 minutes when it beeps for the next five hours, each time telling your roommate that you'll wake up in five minutes.

-As soon as your roommate turns the light off at night, begin singing famous operas as loud as you can. When your roommate turns on the light, look around and pretend to be confused.

-Give your roommate a jar of peanuts. Wait until s/he has eaten half of them, then explain they used to be chocolate-covered, but you licked all the chocolate off of them.

-Spend all your money on Transformers. Play with them at night. If your roommate says anything, tell him/her with a straight face, "They're more than meets the eye."

-Take up playing a musical instrument. Practice constantly in the room, but don't play anything coherent. Play "Hot Cross Buns" or similar three-note songs twenty times until you get it perfect.

-Tell your roommate that someone called and said that it was really important but you can't remember who it was.

-Whenever your roommate comes in from the shower, lower your eyes and giggle to yourself.

-Amuse yourself for endless hours by hooking a camcorder to your TV and then pointing it at the screen

-Follow a few paces behind your roommate, spraying everything he/she touches with a can of Lysol.

-Put black tape over the eyes of the people in your roommate’s pictures. Complain that they were staring at you.

these were the ones that i laughed out loud for, literally. they may be funnier when tired.

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

what a week

this week has been pretty eventful, and it is only tuesday night. :o

monday monday....sigh

i stayed up pretty late sunday night, just chatting away and i was exhausted, fall on bed instant sleep kind of thing. however, i slept terribly. i kept waking up. the people who live above me seemed to have gotten louder and do continue to manage to make, it seems, as much noise as possible. my roommates too, though usually not too bad, like to talk in the mornings. i dont wake up till 1030, well i dont get out of bed until then. i detest being awoken up when i dont want to wake up yet. and monday was definately a crabby start.

i go to my first class, intro to film. it was pretty good, i turned in my film response and headed with damian to the library for intro to communications. i've never been inside suu's library until that day, so it was quite the adventure. we learned how to research...something i learned a long time ago. though there is one site that i am interested in actually using, it has this cool pros and cons link that brings you straight to the page where you will find an argument for and against whatever thing you're researching!!! uuuuseful!

in intro to communications, we are getting ready to give informative speeches. my speech will be on how harry potter has improved society. i had already done some research on this a few years back so im pretty much set. plus i LOVE harry potter so i will actually enjoy doing this assignment. :)

my third class of the day was math. we had a test. yeah im pretty sure the highest i could have gotten is a C. but that is well deserved, i didnt try or do the homework and didnt always go to class, so i cant complain.

after that test i went back to the apartment and just relaxed. completely forgetting about the time and the extra credit assignment, THAT I ALREADY DID!!!!!! but would of course FORGET to turn it IN!!! (for communications, an analysis of the vp debate) GAR!!! 30 points EXTRA CREDIT! GAR GAR GAR GA RELIJSDLFKJSFLKSdj MONStErLKDSJFslkdfj its frustrating.

well around 530 i go to my room and turn on my laptop when a loud obnoxious horrendous noise starts going off. this is a noise i've never heard before, i dont know what to it my's coming from all over...the ceiling? the walls? WHERE WHERE ahhh its sooo loud. i leave my room and see my roommates also very confused. this a fire...drill? is there a real fire? we leave the apartment and see other ppl also looking confused...well we head outside.

now now now. its a bit chilly, prolly in the low 60s with a slight wind. nobody knows what is going on. lisa had quite the amusing story. she was taking a nap and when the sound of death went off she thought it was her alarm clock. so she kept hitting the button to try and turn it off, but it wouldnt turn off. at the time she was still in nap mode to reality hadnt sunk it completely. haha.

basically we're out there for 15 minutes...still nobody knew what was going on. im cold, brittnees cold and so is lisa. (april and stacia were somewhere else, like class) 10 minutes later, the RA's find someone pulled the alarm, but we still had to wait for assistance.

now now, let me tell you what i did BEFORE i left my room. as this awful noise was going off, i have a notion, bring your purse and room key...and shoes. so i did. i grabbed my purse which has my car key and money in it, and my room key and i put on my shoes. none of my other roommates brought anything with them, no room key at all...not even shoes.

back to outside. so me lisa and britt decide to leave, we hop in my car and go to wendys. frostees anyone?? :)

we parked at the elementary school down the road from eccles and ate there. it was some nice roommate bonding.

when we went back, prolly an hour later, all was well.

all in all, a very fun day i think. i at least enjoyed it. rocky starts doesnt mean sucky endings.


i slept better, not perfect, cuz i still got annoyed and crabby when i heard voices that woke me up. be grateful you're not in my mind during those times.

so i get up and go to turn on the light came..."oh no"

i didnt know what to do, luckily stacia came and helped me figure out how to take the light fixture out and then i had to run to class and she said she'd talk to our RA.

anywho, i go to my silly university class. blah blah blah. labels are dumb blah blah blah. buuut oh funny story.

we played the label game. we each had a label on the taped on our backs (soo reminded me of diversity day of the office...) and we formed groups of 4. and we had to tell them if we thought if people should be allowed to protest a funeral.

and the people are supposed to react to us according to our label.

i said i dont think people should be allowed to protest at funerals. it is very disrespectful not only of the person who died, but also for the families and loved ones who are in mourning. just because you may not agree with their lifestyle (gay or a soldier, what we were talking about) does not give you the right to be so mean and rude.

and the ppl in my group were like, yeah go on, you're so right, and that makes me go...I KNOW. i start to agree with them.

after that, we go back to our seats and the instructor goes onto explain what we did that for. and how quickly most people actually start to act what their label is because of how people reacted towards us. (mine was powerful)

i go home, still no light in my room. and stacia says kim will come by after her classes which is 5 pm. im ok with that, and i just eat a snack and then go to my math class

i was refreshened on polynomials. went home, did my hw in like 5 minutes. holla.

5 comes and light...6 comes and i got to kims room (my ra) and her roomies are like..shes not here but we'll tell her you came by.

7, i watch the debate. 830...still no light or kim. i go back to kims, turns out the roomies forgot to tell kim about my problem but luckily, kim is there and gives me three light bulbs.

i go back to my room, put the light bulbs in and then try to put the top covering on it...eventually lisa comes in and figures it out.


and clean

i cleaned it in the dark today...haha

yay! im happy i have light!

and i think im voting for obama...i think. im still debating on voting at all.

i just know i dont like mccain, he was very stupid tonight. his claims are very false as i have heard from my obama loving roommate april and the news. though i found the debate to be actually highly entertaining.

anywho, thats been my week so far. :)


Tuesday, September 30, 2008


eets october. how thrilling. one more month and its my 19th birthday extravaganza. not really. but i will be turning 19. im incredibly old, soon i will enter the ground and there i will rot and decay. lovely picture isnt it? lawl.

the greatest thing you'll ever learn, is just to love, and be loved in return. love is a many, splendid thing, love lifts us up where we belong, all you need is love!

i love moulin rouge. it is truly a work of art and a masterpiece. the music is to die for and the voices are uhMAYzing.

another of my favorite love stories is that of romeo and juiliet. though not the dicaprio version, that is just blah blah blah. the 1960s version. I LOVE it. i think its the most true to the story haha. the characters are actually the proper age. and juliet is beautiful and romeo is dreeeeamy. i had a crush on him my freshman year of high school. :) :)

my favorite love stories are tragic ones...:(

why is that. are those the greatest love stories?

wouldnt one think that greatest love stories are where they end up together? that it works out in the end?

an ideal love story most likely.

but i think what makes the tragic ones so great, is because it doesnt turn out the way we want it to in the end. does it mean they dont love each other? no it does not. clearly they love each other deeply.

almost all modern love stories end up together, we're used to it. its expected. so we are thrown off guard when they DONT end up together. its a shock, the audience is outraged!!!!! ROAR ROAR ROAR

the tragic love story leaves us asking, will they ever love again? will they stop loving that person eventually? will they ever meet up and then it will work out? who knows. its a mystery.

i suppose the romeo and juliet...they both in a way, they are together. happy :)

and with moulin rouge.. more tragic, only she dies, leaving him sad and alone. the question is...will he survive? yes he wrote a story about it. who knows though if he will ever move on...

we all have a love story, whether or not it is now, or it was in the past, or it is simply coming. there is a love story in the making. everyone deserves their own love story too, some will even have more than one. is that good or is that bad?

do you ever stop loving your first love then? isnt your first love the deepest? everythings a first, so it cannot be forgotten. will you simply compare everyone else to that love? made my life...wonderful. well more so. it's a completely different feeling, i've never felt something like it before, to completely trust another human being with my thoughts, feelings, emotions, etc etc and have them feel the same way?? it's a miracle i think. when two people find each other, and it just works. butterflies explode, eyes sparkle, giggles galore, a never ending smile. imaging life without that person is unacceptable. you just want to go on adventure after adventure with them. and everyday you learn more and more things about them, no matter how long you've been together. i wouldnt go back for the world.

i love how i can show all of my colors around him, he doesnt leave or run away, he stays and he helps me through it. when im out of control, he'll hold me until i calm down, when im crazy weird, he'll laugh, when i'm sad, he'll kiss me and hold me tight. in his words...'we're right for each other.'

what does the future hold? i do not know, but i'm hoping he's in it, cause afterall, come what may...

the future will come, and we'll meet it when it does.

until then, avitasay

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

My boat

When i have a family of my own, we are getting a boat! never before did i know the sheer brilliance of them! they are completely relaxing and wonderful.

I went on my roommates boat this past saturday. it was a blast. i had the best time!

I also went tubing! that was incredibly thrilling.

I want a boat like this. its like 30,000 dollars, but i think it is well worth it.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

not so random

i am told that my blog is all over the place. that it is too random.

well sorry that i have many thoughts and i just feel so inclined to type them all down. is that a crime?

i am at college now. sitting in my room, in the dark...(my roommate is sleeping..shh) and i am typing yet another post. college life is most certainly different. the classes, i find, are not all that different from when i was pseo at rctc. i just go from class to class, not socializing if i can, i dont really feel it is necessary. i am not in class to socialize, i am there to get credit and move onto the next class i have to take. now dont get me wrong, i am not against making new friends. i just feel theres a time and place for that. well...i am also incredibly shy...that is most likely the biggest factor in why i feel this way. if you want to talk to me, you'll have to come up to me. i am not trying to be selfish, i am just not comfortable going up to people and just chatting away...yet.

anywho. i like my roommates. they are fun. :) they like to stay in at night, in our apartment and just chill. it is wonderful because that is what i like to do too! i have four roommates. their names are lisa, (my actual roommate) stacia, britnee, and april. april is a transfer student from the u of u, shes a sophomore. boy she is sure full of spunk and energy. shes funny and i enjoy her company. she is also training to become an ultra runner. that is someone who runs events longer than a marathon! jeez...a lap intimidates me. stacia and lisa are the athletes of the group, they go exercise every day after their classes. britnee is quiet and shy, who would have thought she'd be in rotc? haha, i think it is awesome. she's so small too. though i am not sure who is or her. i like to think me, but sometimes i notice she is taller. let's just say i am taller. :)

what am i in the group? hmm...i dont run, i dont want to join the army...i guess i'm a floater. i dont really belong anywhere. i'll go wherever i feel so inclined, or accepted, to be more truthful. i stay pretty true to myself, i still have not joined in on the running, but i have gone to the bookstore all by myself. please be proud as i HATE HATE HATE doing things by myself. well i can DO things on my own, i just dont like going places by myself, so please do not be confused. it wasnt too bad actually, just like walking down the street to check the mail (something i also detest doing). gosh i'm kinda pathetic and weird.

oh i have goals. i very much want to get lisa to read the harry potter books...and start a harry potter club. :)

and dont you think i didnt make academic goals...!

at least a B in math :)
and do my homework as soon as i get back to the apartment everyday.

so good. holla.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

more time

it seems that time is always getting the better of me. there just never seems to be enough of it. there are some people, in particular, where i just wish that i had met them earlier in my life, just so i could have more time with them.

though, people come into our lives at a certain time, place, etc, for a reason. and i suppose i just have to accept that.

it is unlikely, however, that i will just accept it.

time changes things.
people change.

we can change together.

i am in my own thoughts. just typing them. sigh.

i am uncertain about things.
i do not know if i am ready to go to college. in fact, i have often thought about not going at all. there is just so much i am leaving behind. what if i come back and everything is different, or worse, it just isnt there anymore? i dont mind change, i just dont want to lose...

i know that im excited for college, all the new people, experiences, etc. but i do wish i could share it with those im close to.

it is only for a few months at a time. it shouldnt too bad right?

i only wish for more time.

Monday, July 7, 2008

let's see how this goes

i am hoping to actually to regularly make postings for this blog, especially since i will be leaving for college in a little over a month...

wow it's late...owell

i am kinda obsessed with the show jon and kate plus 8.

it's sooo freakin cute!
i just love all the children
asian babies are just adorable

i could watch it for hours and hours...kinda like what i am doing now! :0

tv show marathons were an amazing idea. bravo to whoever came up with it!