more time

it seems that time is always getting the better of me. there just never seems to be enough of it. there are some people, in particular, where i just wish that i had met them earlier in my life, just so i could have more time with them.

though, people come into our lives at a certain time, place, etc, for a reason. and i suppose i just have to accept that.

it is unlikely, however, that i will just accept it.

time changes things.
people change.

we can change together.

i am in my own thoughts. just typing them. sigh.

i am uncertain about things.
i do not know if i am ready to go to college. in fact, i have often thought about not going at all. there is just so much i am leaving behind. what if i come back and everything is different, or worse, it just isnt there anymore? i dont mind change, i just dont want to lose...

i know that im excited for college, all the new people, experiences, etc. but i do wish i could share it with those im close to.

it is only for a few months at a time. it shouldnt too bad right?

i only wish for more time.

let's see how this goes

i am hoping to actually to regularly make postings for this blog, especially since i will be leaving for college in a little over a month...


wow it's late...owell

i am kinda obsessed with the show jon and kate plus 8.

it's sooo freakin cute!
i just love all the children
asian babies are just adorable
:)

i could watch it for hours and hours...kinda like what i am doing now! :0

tv show marathons were an amazing idea. bravo to whoever came up with it!

eve things

oh muh gudeness! it's been quite a while since i did one of these things. I have decided to write a new post because i am bored of facebook. crazy i know. today is new years eve. it is very exciting. 2008 is almost hurr.

i hope to fulfill my new years resolution of 2007 today. Learn how to ice skate.

i really waited until the last minute to do it, but perhaps i'll actually fulfill a new years resolution.

WOOOOOO

i really like that got low song, something about jeans or something. i know the lyrics are retarded, but i think it's a catchy tune.

i have started to use firefox instead of internet explorer. i like firefox much better, it saves passwords and stuff, now i dont have to memorize anything, or continuously type the same things over and over again.

i am bothered by the continual writers strike. i am annoyed with it actually.

i am very bitter because i have to watch reruns.

Euthanasia

Euthanasia- mercy killing to prevent a prolonged and painful death.

i had another dumb moment today, this time in english class.

so i was sitting in my left-handed desk which is in the back of the class, and i sat next to katie tri...and professor shen is talking about something and writing words on the board. something about a debate...and that we have to debate something...and we get to choose the topic of what we are debating...something along those lines. anywho as he is talking he says euthanasia...but i think he says youth in asia...and im thinking, what in the crap does that have anything to do with this?

all this time whenever people say euthanasia, i think they say youth in asia...NO wonder i have been so confuddled!!!!! once again my ignorance beats out my intelligence. :(

but on the bright side...im actually learning something in school

who would have thought THAT would happen ;)

totally dude

i get knocked down, but i get up again, you're never gonna keep me down, i get knocked down....

just recently i found out what that song really means. all this time i thought it was about falling down...and then getting back up. literally...falling down and literally...getting back up.

who would make a song otherwise?

oh goodness

mayo won their homecoming game :) :) :)

yay!

problem? century won too...

i am thinking of maybe giving up on the idea of being big nine champs... :(

i've just grown so accustomed to it...it will be sad.

"i know it's childish...but so is high school"

this wasn't supposed to happen

I never could have seen this far
I never could have seen this coming
It seems like my world is falling apart

Why is everything so hard?
I don’t think that I can deal with the things you said
They just won’t go away

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Its sad, so sad
Its a sad, sad situation
And its getting more and more absurd
Its sad, so sad
Why cant we talk it over
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word


but i am sorry, so so so so so sorry.

it's not like she's gonna see this though, so it really is just me typing words that will never be read.

if you see her, tell her i'm sorry. i never meant for any of this to happen.

excusaymuah

that makes me laugh, because it reminds me of all the times i have looked at racks of clothes where there is nothing but absolute crap. i do not like clearance racks...why? well because they rarely have my size in them. they are filled with larges and extra larges and extra extra large...sometimes they have a medium. but do they EVER have a small or an extra small? mmm not really. so i get stuck paying full price just to get my size. good grief.

my dad found out our netflix password all because the little girl that lives in my house aka becca told him it...he has changed the list! all three movies we have now are the muppets season 1!!! needless to say i am disappointed.

anywho summer is officially over. i only have three classes at rctc, and one online class. my online class is govt, it will be tricky. i have not yet mastered how to use it. many think that since it is an online class, that it should be no problem for me. well the problem with that assumption is that when i am online, i do not actually like to do work, i rarely do anything productive, so to actually buckle down and do school work, hmm it will be interesting. i have till 11:59PM...tonight...to take a quiz. i really should go take it, though i do not know what it is on. hem hem...

ah the muppets are singing! make it stooooop!

seminary starts tomorrow :/

Upside:

-i can just go home afterwards and go back to bed

-Paulina's stomach and my stomach can talk to each other once again

-seeing the super cool faces of haley bly and paulina lopez every single morning :)

-only one last year :) :) :) :) :) :) :):)

Downside:

-I dont get to go back to bed on tues and thurs

-scripture mastery speeches!!???sldfjdklfjdsfkds

-6:10 AM um ew

-it's seminary

6 more days till the HSM dance! yay!