not so random

i am told that my blog is all over the place. that it is too random.

well sorry that i have many thoughts and i just feel so inclined to type them all down. is that a crime?

i am at college now. sitting in my room, in the dark...(my roommate is sleeping..shh) and i am typing yet another post. college life is most certainly different. the classes, i find, are not all that different from when i was pseo at rctc. i just go from class to class, not socializing if i can, i dont really feel it is necessary. i am not in class to socialize, i am there to get credit and move onto the next class i have to take. now dont get me wrong, i am not against making new friends. i just feel theres a time and place for that. well...i am also incredibly shy...that is most likely the biggest factor in why i feel this way. if you want to talk to me, you'll have to come up to me. i am not trying to be selfish, i am just not comfortable going up to people and just chatting away...yet.

anywho. i like my roommates. they are fun. :) they like to stay in at night, in our apartment and just chill. it is wonderful because that is what i like to do too! i have four roommates. their names are lisa, (my actual roommate) stacia, britnee, and april. april is a transfer student from the u of u, shes a sophomore. boy she is sure full of spunk and energy. shes funny and i enjoy her company. she is also training to become an ultra runner. that is someone who runs events longer than a marathon! jeez...a lap intimidates me. stacia and lisa are the athletes of the group, they go exercise every day after their classes. britnee is quiet and shy, who would have thought she'd be in rotc? haha, i think it is awesome. she's so small too. though i am not sure who is taller...me or her. i like to think me, but sometimes i notice she is taller. let's just say i am taller. :)

what am i in the group? hmm...i dont run, i dont want to join the army...i guess i'm a floater. i dont really belong anywhere. i'll go wherever i feel so inclined, or accepted, to be more truthful. i stay pretty true to myself, i still have not joined in on the running, but i have gone to the bookstore all by myself. please be proud as i HATE HATE HATE doing things by myself. well i can DO things on my own, i just dont like going places by myself, so please do not be confused. it wasnt too bad actually, just like walking down the street to check the mail (something i also detest doing). gosh i'm kinda pathetic and weird.

oh i have goals. i very much want to get lisa to read the harry potter books...and start a harry potter club. :)

and dont you think i didnt make academic goals...!

at least a B in math :)
and do my homework as soon as i get back to the apartment everyday.

so far...so good. holla.

more time

it seems that time is always getting the better of me. there just never seems to be enough of it. there are some people, in particular, where i just wish that i had met them earlier in my life, just so i could have more time with them.

though, people come into our lives at a certain time, place, etc, for a reason. and i suppose i just have to accept that.

it is unlikely, however, that i will just accept it.

time changes things.
people change.

we can change together.

i am in my own thoughts. just typing them. sigh.

i am uncertain about things.
i do not know if i am ready to go to college. in fact, i have often thought about not going at all. there is just so much i am leaving behind. what if i come back and everything is different, or worse, it just isnt there anymore? i dont mind change, i just dont want to lose...

i know that im excited for college, all the new people, experiences, etc. but i do wish i could share it with those im close to.

it is only for a few months at a time. it shouldnt too bad right?

i only wish for more time.

let's see how this goes

i am hoping to actually to regularly make postings for this blog, especially since i will be leaving for college in a little over a month...


wow it's late...owell

i am kinda obsessed with the show jon and kate plus 8.

it's sooo freakin cute!
i just love all the children
asian babies are just adorable
:)

i could watch it for hours and hours...kinda like what i am doing now! :0

tv show marathons were an amazing idea. bravo to whoever came up with it!

eve things

oh muh gudeness! it's been quite a while since i did one of these things. I have decided to write a new post because i am bored of facebook. crazy i know. today is new years eve. it is very exciting. 2008 is almost hurr.

i hope to fulfill my new years resolution of 2007 today. Learn how to ice skate.

i really waited until the last minute to do it, but perhaps i'll actually fulfill a new years resolution.

WOOOOOO

i really like that got low song, something about jeans or something. i know the lyrics are retarded, but i think it's a catchy tune.

i have started to use firefox instead of internet explorer. i like firefox much better, it saves passwords and stuff, now i dont have to memorize anything, or continuously type the same things over and over again.

i am bothered by the continual writers strike. i am annoyed with it actually.

i am very bitter because i have to watch reruns.

Euthanasia

Euthanasia- mercy killing to prevent a prolonged and painful death.

i had another dumb moment today, this time in english class.

so i was sitting in my left-handed desk which is in the back of the class, and i sat next to katie tri...and professor shen is talking about something and writing words on the board. something about a debate...and that we have to debate something...and we get to choose the topic of what we are debating...something along those lines. anywho as he is talking he says euthanasia...but i think he says youth in asia...and im thinking, what in the crap does that have anything to do with this?

all this time whenever people say euthanasia, i think they say youth in asia...NO wonder i have been so confuddled!!!!! once again my ignorance beats out my intelligence. :(

but on the bright side...im actually learning something in school

who would have thought THAT would happen ;)

totally dude

i get knocked down, but i get up again, you're never gonna keep me down, i get knocked down....

just recently i found out what that song really means. all this time i thought it was about falling down...and then getting back up. literally...falling down and literally...getting back up.

who would make a song otherwise?

oh goodness

mayo won their homecoming game :) :) :)

yay!

problem? century won too...

i am thinking of maybe giving up on the idea of being big nine champs... :(

i've just grown so accustomed to it...it will be sad.

"i know it's childish...but so is high school"

this wasn't supposed to happen

I never could have seen this far
I never could have seen this coming
It seems like my world is falling apart

Why is everything so hard?
I don’t think that I can deal with the things you said
They just won’t go away

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Its sad, so sad
Its a sad, sad situation
And its getting more and more absurd
Its sad, so sad
Why cant we talk it over
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word


but i am sorry, so so so so so sorry.

it's not like she's gonna see this though, so it really is just me typing words that will never be read.

if you see her, tell her i'm sorry. i never meant for any of this to happen.